A Winner

Hey.

Wanted to do this every week but its almost been a month since my last blog!. Couldn't get myself to sit down and write but i believe its been a fruitful gap for me and i think I've changed a lot in the past 4 weeks and surely more than any other 4 weeks ever!

I'm not sure what i want to write down here today. But like i said earlier, i want this to be more of a personal diary than a blog. There are lots of things i want to write about actually but i don't know where and what to begin with.

So i was thinking that I'll write down whatever comes to my mind today. Some sort of a free writing without going back to edit it. So let me start! :)



Past few weeks I've been reading a book called "Think and Grow Rich" by Napoleon Hill. I haven't finished reading it though I'm at the fag end of the book now. And it's just been great reading a book. I feel that I've become a totally different person just by reading that book and also by listening to the podcast by L. Anderson.

I had been thinking a lot about what it takes to succeed, to reach the pinnacle of ones potential as that's what I'm trying to do (in many ways) by preparing for the CS examination. And the book really had clear (although some may call it radical) steps to realize ones potential. It dealt more with money but it can be applied anywhere else and in anything that one wants to achieve.

I've come to realize that the major reason of me being where i am today was a lack of a definite purpose. I've lived my life, especially the past 4 and a half years, just 'flowing with the times'. Similar to a ship on a river with no one to guide and steer it. I don't think I've even made many of the decisions on my own. I was just expecting to let time take my decisions. But I'm now ready to take a hold of my life and take it where i want it to be.

I am now looking at a definite purpose and have this desire (I'm trying to light the desire so that it 'burns', and it is happening :) and will happen!) to get what i want.

So many times we 'fail' in life because of our lack of ambition. Failure can mean different things for different people. But i believe that we fail when we do not reach our true potential and do not carry out God's plan for our lives. Many times we are scared to aim and think big. We worry about what this or that guy will say. We worry about what our friends, relatives and other people will say. "They might say I'm crazy ", "That is not possible", "No one has ever done that", "How do you think you will accomplish that". And we start believing in things that are not true, 'the unbelievable actually becomes believable' but in the opposite direction.

Therefore we have to develop self belief no matter what people say. People never know who the real you is because, simply, 'they are not you'. We must conquer fear, 'fear of criticism', 'fear of failure' and fear of anything that tends to make you doubt yourself. For this, it is important to surround yourself with successful and encouraging people. People who will take you to the next level just by their encouragement and belief in you because they believe in themselves. They know that we are limited only by ourselves and by nothing else.

"Whatever the mind of man can believe, it can achieve."
"Whether you think you can or can't, you are right."

We should not only dream and plan but we have to live, walk and talk our dream. Don't wait for tomorrow because what you are today is what you will be tomorrow. Start living your dream, its not something that is far away, its not something that cannot be reached. Your dream is here, right now at this moment, grab it and take it, because it is rightfully yours.

Tell yourself everyday of what you want to be and that you will get there no matter what it takes and your subconscious mind will automatically take you there regardless of the obstacles and temporary failures that you face.

A failure is never a failure unless you accept it. It actually brings you closer to your goal. Someone who wants to walk 100 metres might walk for 80 metres and think he has failed if he did not know how far or how long he walked. If he gives up without realizing that there was just 20 metres left, it would be a tragedy. Never give up. And when you are ready to give up, you should be glad, because that is the sign that success is just around the corner. Be ready to give in that little extra effort that people fail to give.

I could go on forever! :)

But in the end, remember to keep the desire 'burning' because that is what will keep you motivated, that is what will bring the persistence that is needed.

"Failure cannot cope with persistence"

*Failure fails in the face of persistence*

"Winers never quit; Quitters never win"

*Just believe and before you know it, you'll have IT*

Lastly, *Think big because you are nothing less than BIG*

P.S. : When i say 'you', I'm actually talking to myself :). And, hey, i came up with some new quotes on my own when i just let my thoughts flow freely :). Colored them, just so i remember them the next time i see it. :)

And let me also add that many ideas were taken from the book i mentioned earlier, "Think and Grow Rich" by Napoleon Hill. (If anyone reads this blog :) )

First Blog! - Future

I've always wanted to put my thoughts into writing but somehow i've never been able to do so. So i'm trying to write something for 'real' today although I feel very distracted at the moment and doubt whether this writing will be to my satisfaction. I just want to relax writing this blog.

To be honest, it does not really matter if people read this. I'm not much of a writer and i'll just write down whatever comes to my mind! And i want to write every Sunday if possible.


I'm at a stage right now where the future looks so hazy. It is said that the strong persevere but what do I persevere for? I'm not sure what I want from life and what life wants from me, although I admit that i've never been able to give much thought to it though i've told myself again and again that i've got to ponder on that. Maybe this blog will help me!

On the back of my mind, just the thought that people will be able to read this somehow seems to restrict me and I believe, that reflects quite a bit of who I am as a person.

Hard work is what it takes to succeed but that's easier said than done when traces of self doubt run through your head. Sometimes I wonder, 'What have i done with all the years of my life?', 'What are the forces and circumstances that have made me what I am today?', 'What is it that I want to be in the future?', 'Is power, status and money all that matters or is it service to mankind and love for God?'. I have always believed in the latter part of the last question.

But then the questions arise, 'How am i to serve and to love?', 'What are the steps that i need to take to be a person who is able to do that?', 'What are the goals that I have to keeps my eyes fixed on?', 'How will the present effect the future?', 'How do I measure my success then?', 'What if I am satisfied without realising my full potential? Would that be a tragedy?'. 'And what is my full potential?'.

Maybe some questions will seem silly as life moves on and I think I have 'some' answer to most of them but i could never say that, "I have an answer to these questions".

History is being made as i write this blog, it is being made as I live my life each day. But how serious am i in making a history that i can look back on and say, "I did my best then"? I believe that would be the question that matters the most. Right now when i ask myself the same question, I feel that I could have done much better in many situations or maybe almost all situations. And there are days and even months and years that have been 'plainly wasted'. I hope the present holds a better future for me and I hope I am giving my best right here and right now.

Enough for tonight! :)
( Why is it that i changed the small "i"s to capital "I"s? :).. and i can see that there are too many "I's"!! so i stopped halfway into doing it!! )